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Oct. 9th, 2010

my dad died suddenly on wednesday at my sister's house. by the time we got to the hospital, he'd been gone for a couple of hours.

today was the memorial and cremation, so that his wife can bring him back to vietnam.

as you might expect, none of this feels real. my rational and emotional halves aren't speaking to each other right now.

i don't know what to expect from the future. all i can tell you is that it sucks. completely and totally sucks and i wish that this wasn't part of how things will be from now on.

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killer_krill
Oct. 10th, 2010 11:20 pm (UTC)
hey
if you ever want to just talk or anything, I went through pretty much the same thing with my mom, who died when I was 19 from an aneurysm. I know i don't know you too well, in spite of our many mutual friends, though i've always liked you a bunch.

What I can tell you I've learned from my own experience with my mom's death is that the hardest part is not hearing her voice whenever I want to call her up. But her death taught me the last lesson she'd give me, about how you have to live life in a way that makes you happy. I hope your dad did so, and I hope your memories of him help you to keep living as happily as you can. I'm sorry he won't be around, at least not in the same way.

Give me a call/facebook sometime if you want to meet up.
Much love,
A.C.
anharaxiel
Oct. 11th, 2010 04:19 am (UTC)
Re: hey
thanks so much, a.c. yeah, i'd really like that. it's so hard to talk about it, and all the leftover feelings besides. the sort of...absoluteness of it is so incomprehensible. and i've always wanted to talk to you more, albeit not associated with this kind of circumstance, heh. thank you again.